Have you ever worked SO hard at something for an entire year and accomplish nothing at yet everything at the same time?
My year in review, that's how I feel. I have worked SO HARD at losing weight this entire year. I started running in March after we moved. I got a great group of girls to run with. We ran all summer, 3 and 4 times a week for at least 3 miles. I worked my way to a 10 minute mile, and some times a 9.5 minute mile.
I then felt like I was holding them back. Most days I could only do a 12 minute mile and these girls could run 8-10 minute miles easy. My 12 minutes was really pushing it for me. I decided to run on my own and that didn't last long. It started getting cold and I started finding excuses but I made it to September, I was proud.
I started at a gym in September and started doing kickboxing, running, and a weight lifting class. I was working out even more. 1-2 hours every day, Monday through Saturday. I have fallen in love with some of the instructors (well mainly one, she knows who she is if she's reading) and others are just fine. All throughout this I have lost NOTHING. Not even one ounce. Today I weighed in at 210 lbs. I have gone from 212 to 204 then back up and around and down and all over but never above 212 and never below 204.
So, throughout this year I feel like I have failed and yet succeeded in so many ways. I feel like I failed because I didn't even get below 200. I really wanted that. But other than that, I've succeeded.
I never gave up. I love exercising. I thrive for it most days. It gets me going in the morning and puts me to sleep each night. I have become happier being me and being as healthy as I can vs worrying so much about the weight. I have brought my mile down from 17 minutes to a 10 minute mile and then down to a 9.5 min mile (as long as I only run one mile). I am stronger. I am better. I am me! Here's to a new year with continued success. I hope this year will bring weight-loss but if not, I will know I can continue to succeed!